Just like parents all over the country right now, I want to wrap my children in my arms and never let go. I want to protect them from all the evil in the world.
I want to shield them from the horrific images and stories of the tragedy
that happened in Connecticut on Friday.
Unfortunately, I have to drop them off at school at 8:00 a.m. tomorrow morning.
Now I will pray all day long that they make it home safely at 3:00 p.m.
I will spend my day with angst and worry, knowing they are not even safe
a half a mile down the street from our home at their elementary school.
First day of school -August, 2012
Even though I cannot protect my children 24 hours a day,
I do my very best to make them feel loved and cherished and safe.
About a week ago, my eight year old son and I began reading the book "Heaven is for Real"
by Todd Burpo.
I read the book last year and it really had a profound effect on me.
As a child, I found the subject of death quite terrifying.
I had several people in my life pass away suddenly.
These experiences left me very fearful of death.
When I became a mother, my fear of death became much less selfish.
I stopped focusing on me and what I would miss out on and I started thinking of all the things my children would miss out on not having a mother in their life.
Deep, dark stuff, people.
Reading the book "Heaven is for Real" made me, simply put, not afraid of dying.
The idea of going to a place, for all eternity, that is beautiful and safe and full of angels
actually sounds pretty wonderful. Not that I'm in a hurry to get there, but when I do, God willing,
I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that it will be a million times better than any place here on earth, even the beach!
Tonight when I picked up the book to read with my son,
I thought of the 20 little angels heaven gained on Friday.
I know their parents would give anything in the world to be holding them in their arms right now,
but I find peace knowing that Jesus is now holding them in his arms.
If you haven't already read the book, I encourage you to do so.
There is also a children's book out now, "Heaven is for Real for Kids".
You can find out more about the books and the story behind the books here.